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Country dreams There are days when I wish I could move out to the country. I would love to have a farm with a ton of animals! Whenever I see animals that are up for adoption, I want to bring them all home with me. I think up ways in which I could #1 convince the hubby that it's a good idea and #2 figure out how to fit one more being into our small apartment. Then reality kicks in and I know both of those things are impossible. Which is why I fantasize about the farm. I'd have a cat house like the ones at the zoo that they keep leopards in. I'd have lots of little, crazy dogs like the Osbournes and maybe even a couple of big dogs. I would definitely have rabbits and chickens and a pond with ducks. Oh and I would have those little, tiny ponys that are so adorable. Sigh.... it would be so great! Too bad the experimental jazz scene doesn't thrive out in the country. Maybe we could start a mini-animal petting zoo slash avant-garde music club. How is that for a business plan? A girl can dream, can't I? P.S. Happy 22nd birthday to my boy Adriancito, wherever you may be. I have to share my favorite picture of him... I love it because of what he wrote on the back. He was excited to give me his new school picture and I made him "dedicate" it to me. I told him to write something personal on the back and this is what he came up with. I love it!   Domestic I had a rather interesting and frustrating day last Saturday. I had errands
to run, the likes of which I won't bore you with, just know I waited in
looong lines forever and drove through pot-holey, traffic for nothing.
Anyway I got a haircut and not realizing I couldn't tip on my card, I
had to make an ATM run. Luckily the bank wasn't too far away and I took
a shortcut through an alley and a parking lot. Well I was coming up to
the lot and I saw a guy looking around struggling to put something in
his front passenger seat. His car was blocking me and as I crept a bit
closer I realized he was trying to force a girl into his car! She was
fighting him and screaming! I couldn't believe my eyes. I drove right
up to him and started honking my horn like crazy. He looked right at me
and let her go. She took off running down the street. The guy was
pissed! He was a young 17-20yr old, Hispanic guy with two large,
sparkly earrings. I looked at his tag and repeated it out loud to
memorize it. He took off and I pulled into the lot and called 911. Side
note: I officially think the iPhone is not safe in an emergency! I had
to go through too many steps to get to the dial pad to call 911. I
definitely couldn't have done it while driving and I was afraid that
after so many steps, I'd forget the plate numbers. Which is why I
repeated the numbers aloud and when the operator answered it was the
first thing I said. How freaky is that? How brazen of that little bastard to pull something like that! I hope the cops found him, I hope they found something illegal in his car so he could be arrested. It looked like more like a domestic situation than a kidnapping attempt. I could be wrong but something about the way she ran away makes me think that, she was not quite terrified enough. When I left the bank I saw the guy drive by again but I thought I saw someone in the car with him. He probably caught up with her. I saw no cops at all in the area, go figure. Domestic abuse is everywhere. Look at the whole Rhianna and Chris Brown incident. I hate how celebrities give these sound bites saying they are "praying for both of them." Why is it so difficult to admonish Brown? There is no question that he beat the crap out of her. It shouldn't matter how it started or what the fight was about. He has no right to put his filthy paws on her and he should be incarcerated for what he did. Bottom line: a man can defend himself against a female but a female can not defend herself against a man. What a piece of crap he is. I have no tolerance for abusive, controlling, domineering men. I also have no tolerance for the women who let them get away with it. It will be a real shame if Rhianna doesn't press charges, which at this point it looks like she won't. That will tell all those young girls out there that they have to be good girlfriends and forgive their abusers instead of holding them accountable for their crimes. I am sick of seeing and hearing about cases like this, it's an epidemic. Obviously, I have issues regarding Domestic Abuse having witnessed it first hand. It seems like it's always going to be one of my red button issues. I'm just glad that my husband is the complete opposite of all those disgusting, cowards I have been unfortunate enough to know. Sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky to end up with him, because I know how difficult it is to break the cycle of abuse. Blah, Blah, Blago So I'm sure you've heard, our governor has been kicked out of office. It's such an embarrassment for our state. He actually lives a couple of blocks down from me and we are used to seeing him around the 'hood. When we first moved here I noticed a house that always had a guy in a black crown Vic sitting outside or a state trooper car in the drive. It wasn't until Charlie got into a little tiff with one of those officers late one night that we found out exactly who lived there. He made the most grievous error of honking at said trooper, when he was blocking the street. So not only did the trooper come over and yell at Charlie for honking at a cop but Charlie was also not wearing his seat belt and had a headlight out. Not smart. Well in what is his typical style, Charlie called the trooper's commander and complained. We promptly recieved an apology from the commander and were left quite bewildered by it. A quick google search later we found out why. I will say that I liked him because I thought it was very nice that he didn't move to Springfield because he didn't want to uproot his daughter from school. I liked that he was able to pass a type of affordable health insurance for all kids of Illinois and their families. I was a big fan of that. So when we saw him jogging by or walked by his house with the dog, he always waved and was very nice. Sure, I had heard the gossip of his family connections and dubious qualifications but I didn't really pay it much mind. So you can imagine my surprise when he was arrested on the 9th of December. I am so mad at him now! I know he hasn't been convicted in a criminal court but after hearing those tapes it's hard to believe he is innocent. The worst offense in my opinion is the funding he withheld from a children's hospital because they wouldn't make a campaign contribution. I hate to think of how many poor, sick children were affected by his selfishness. It's disgusting. We were at a bar the other night till like 2am talking with friends about all he is being accused of. It's so bad! I feel like the whole world is laughing at Illinois. It really makes me lose so much faith in government here and everywhere else. I see it like this, if this happens so brazenly here were we supposedly have so many laws and transparency, what hope is there for other places in the world were they don't have these "rights?" I realize that his impeachment can be taken as evidence that our "system" is working and that he will be made out to be an example of what happens to corrupt politicians, but some how it does not restore my confidence in government and politicians. So today our neighborhood was again over run with reporters and camera crews. It's so strange for a person like me who grew up in a place where absolutely nothing ever happened, to now be watching events like these before my own eyes. I saw when the state troopers were removed from their post outside his house and I wonder what he is going to do now. He definitely needs some kind of security, if only to field all the reporters. I feel so bad for his kid, how sad and scary must this all be for her. Now if he would only shut up and start taking this seriously. exhale and inhale So I have to turn off Telly. I can't watch the inauguration anymore. I'm beyond happy that everything went so well and that we now have hope in the White House. I just can't watch everyone crying and celebrating anymore. Ever since I went to a friends condo last night and he nonchalantly told me that he had tickets to everything and just didn't go. It made me sick. Then he showed me his VIP pass and pictures on his phone where Obama is like 10 feet away from him during his acceptance speech. I was really peeved. It just reminded me of how unfair this world can be. Millions of people would have been honored to be a part of yesterday's historic events and he just didn't go. Not because of his job, or because he couldn't afford it, just because. Well fuck that! I'm so mad. Then I got to thinking about all the assholes who didn't even vote for him and still got to go to all the events because they are a bunch of status hungry, ass kissers. Oh man, I need a time out. breeeaaaatheee, breeeaaatheee. Ok I feel a bit better. I don't want to end this post on a negative note so I will list all the things I particuarly enjoyed about yesterday:
New Year It was a busy, busy holiday season. We made our annual trek to Kansas to see our families. It was a good Christmas, for the first time in years, all of my aunts and uncles were together. We had an unexpected little reunion, with only a few people unable to make it. There was so much food. They made tamales and ponche 3 times! Unfortunately I forgot my camera so I didn't get very many pictures other than the ones I snapped with my phone. I'll have to get some from my sister and post them later. I am so excited for the inauguration! I wish so badly that I was going. I will be glued to the tv these next few days. I wouldn't care if it was freezing or if I had to camp out, I would still go. I am really kicking myself for not having gone on one of the many organized bus trips that are going. See, I'd even bus it there! That is how much I wanna go. Oh well, at least I got to see him at Grant Park. Oh Happy Days!Happy New President everyone!!
How can I possibly describe how deliriously happy I am? It has been such an emotional week, with an ending of historic proportions. My face actually hurts from smiling all day!
The rally was one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced. I was in a crowd of thousands of people from all different backgrounds, races and beliefs and yet it felt like we were all one. Everyone was excited, hopeful and very peaceful. We were all hoping for the best, fearing the worst and preparing for both outcomes. The crowd hummed with nervous excitement as we waited in the lines to get into Hutchinson Field. There were 3 security checkpoints for people with tickets yet it didn't take more than 45 min. to get in. When we made it past the last checkpoint all that was between us and the very front of the barricade was a thin, red tape. As soon as the cops removed the tape we all made a run for it! Even as the cops were screaming "NO RUNNING" we took off. Hutchinson field is actually downhill from where we were waiting and so we came running down that hill. I don't know how my stubby legs got me there but I was at the front of the whole crowd and I made it right to the front of our section!! It was like that scene in "Born in East LA" where all the Mexicans come running down the hill, crossing into the U.S.! Well while we weren't right up by the stage we got a great spot. There was a huge gap between us and the next batch of people so that meant I didn't have anyone in front of me, nor where we in the middle of the giant mass of bodies. I had a great view of everything and I could even see the podium. I got to see and speak with a couple of secret service guys for the first time. It was so cool!! They were like in the movies, with black trench coats and the curly wire coming out their ear and a killer disposition. I have to say they were pretty hot!
So while we waited we watched CNN on the jumbo-tron and were listening to the radio on the loudspeakers. Every time they called a state where Obama won the crowd roared and conversely when McCain won one we all booed. Then 11pm came and Obama was announced THE NEXT PRESIDENT OF THE US, well it was overwhelming! We screamed, jumped, hugged each other and cried. It was so incredibly emotional. I honestly couldn't believe it right away. I thought it seemed to quick to be a done deal. Especially considering the last 2 fiascos, i was prepared to camp out all night long. I felt like I left my body and was floating above the crowd watching everyone hug and celebrate. It was a moment I hope to remember forever. Then Obama came out and there was a collective, joyful exhalation. Like we needed to see him to actually believe it. Well I can honestly say I have never felt so hopeful for our future. I am incredibly grateful to my friend for giving me a ticket and letting me be on the inside of those gates to watch history happen before my eyes. I was so sorry my husband was not there with me, I wanted him there so much but he has his own unique story to tell about that wonderful night. I had my own Mr. Man to hug and cry on although in my case it was my friend Samara! And the icing on my cake?? I freaking saw Oprah on the way out!!! I was 10 feet from her! OMG!
So what a week, what an exciting week. Actually what a week to be out of the country! The hub missed Halloween (our fav holiday), our 8th anniversay (!), and most importantly this election night. But not to worry, like I said he had his own, unique experience. He was following the election over there while on tour. They would stop often and ask people at gas stations what was going on, via translator of course. And I think it was him who heard first who won and told the rest of the band. He rocked his Obama tee over there and he said people were coming up to him in the streets yelling "Obama!" How cool. And as for Halloween, well i decked our apartment out Halloween style so for us it was Halloween yesterday. I even put the dog in his costume (a different one than the bee) and he greeted the hub at the door in costume. He was surprised. Oh and for our Anniversary I think we are going out for a nice dinner tomorrow. Last night though, we broke out the wedding video and laughed and cried a little (i did). We really look baby-faced and so completely freaked out! hahaha!
P.S. speaking of baby face, the hub met the actual Baby Face in Japan! How cool is that?
I got a GOLDEN TICKET!!Guess who got a ticket to tomorrow's Obama rally?? Yes, yours truly!!!
I am on cloud 9 right now. I had already resigned to going down to Grant Park anyway without a ticket to watch the whole thing on a jumbo-tron. But at about 8pm tonight my luck changed when my friend Samara called with an extra ticket. (cue harp) Would I be interested?? Are you kidding me? Hell YES!! I still can't believe it. I am confident that Obama is going to win, I can't wait to watch it happen. This is history in the making and I will be there. How awesome is that?? oh and btw the rally is at HUTCHINSON FIELD in grant park! (that's the name of my hometown in Kansas)
The funny thing is that the Hub has no idea!! He is in Japan at the moment on tour and I don't really have any way to get ahold of him. I could email him but I'd rather surprise him when he gets home. He is going to be blown away! I was really bummed that I didn't go to Japan this time but this more than makes up for that. Actually I just realized that I will probably get a call from him tomorrow because it's our ANNIVERSARY!! hahaha! He will probably call me and I won't be able to contain my excitement.
Oh man, I don't know how I'll be able to sleep tonight.
http://www.chicagobreakingnews.com/2008/11/public-transit-for-rally-will-run-as-long-as-it-takes.html
Happy Birthday Muffin!I feel like I didn't even have a weekend. Usually we keep Sunday open for each other but this weekend even Sunday was packed full.
Today was my doggie's 6th B-Day!! I feel like he is older than that because I feel like he has been with me my whole life. He is so cute! I feel really bad because we didn't really celebrate his birthday. We were really busy all day but I still feel like that is no excuse. Usually I'll buy him a cupcake or an organic treat from the doggie boutique and maybe get him a new toy. The more I write, the guiltier I feel. I will definitely do something for him tomorrow. He deserves it!!
Anyway, Friday we went out for Indian food with Bendito & Martita. Hahahahaha! I crack myself up! We went to this awesome vegetarian buffet place that we have been going to for years! It's sooooo good, you don't even miss the meat at all. Everything is so flavorful and delicious. I don't know what most of the food is called because they don't put out labels. That is my one complaint about the place. It would be nice to be able to order the same stuff by name. Anyway, every single thing is good there.
Saturday we went out with Wes & Dana and it was a fun time. She just got back from a gallery showing in NYC and it was very successful. I lot of people from all over saw her installation. She is so incredibly talented. I love her. I call her "Renaissance Woman" because she is so smart and creative. There is nothing she can't do!! And she has the best laugh--ask my uncle Hugo who sat next to her at my graduation dinner!
Today I went to an open house for a grad school I'm considering!!! GULP! I went and saw the school and talked to the department heads of the two majors i'm considering. I either want to get my masters in Architecture or my masters in Design. I can't decide. I am weighing both options very carefully, more carefully than I did my undergrad. To decide on that was an ordeal in itself so you can imagine the process now with the way the economy is and how hard it is to get jobs. I don't want to fall for all the glorious examples they give you at these presentations. They only tell you about the most successful students of course but not too much about the average student. Grad school is just such an incredible amount of money and the figures scare the crap out of me. However I know it's an invaluable investment and it's something I really want to accomplish during my lifetime. So I am going to do this, I am just not sure exactly when or where yet. A part of me wants to just go to a state school because it is considerably less money but I feel the quality of the education and the contacts that you make is part of what you pay for at a private, more expensive school. I don't know, I have to really mediate on whether or not I am ready to get back into school mode. Lord knows I was so ready to be done 2 1/2 years ago!!
BTW, when I use my powerbook the format to these entries comes out different than when I type it. It runs all the paragraphs together and I know that is confusing to read. So I apologize if it happens again. I have to figure out how to fix this. Chihuahua MovieI wanted to write about my concerns regarding the repercussions of the Beverly hills Chihuahua movie. I received the following email from a member of the play group I take my dog to and I felt that it expressed what I have been thinking about.
" Disney is releasing a new live-action film in
September, Beverly Hills Chihuahua. When Disney re-released 101
Dalmatians in 1996, untold numbers of families rushed out to
buy Dalmatian puppies. These dogs are notorious for being
willful and require extra dedication in training--and
unfortunately, thousands of dogs were relinquished to shelters
by owners who weren't willing to make the special effort.
To keep this same tragic fate from befalling Chihuahuas, please
urge club members to spread the word--Chihuahuas are a small
and fragile breed, and generally are better suited in homes
without young children. I have spoken with a representative of
the AKC who tells me they are working with Disney to create an
insert for the DVD packaging that will accompany the movie once
it hits retail. The insert advises people to pick a dog suited
for their family and lifestyle. I've spoken with a
representative of the Chihuahua rescue group I help support,
and they are already pushed beyond capacity in finding foster
homes for relinquished Chis. They know the Disney release will
only compound the problem. So, please, help spread the word and
those who can--adopt or foster!!!"
I am so afraid that people will see the movie and run out to get chihuahua puppies for their kids, not realizing all the care, expense and attention that these little dogs require. I can't count how many times I have been stopped by parents to ask me where I got my chi so they can get one for their kids. I always tell them the truth: These little dogs are not for kids. I repeat THEY ARE NOT FOR KIDS!! They are delicate, defenseless and the most vulnerable dogs because of their size. Too many times people get them thinking that they will be good with their toddler or kid because they won't knock the kid down but they don't think about the dogs safety. I have seen it too many times, even in my own circle, where someone gets a dog (chihuahua or other wise) because of it's looks or it's size and when the dog isn't perfect they get rid of it like it was a disposable object. Dogs require patience, money, and over all having a dog or any kind of pet is a MAJOR LIFESTYLE CHANGE that has to be taken into account when deciding to get one. People don't think beyond the cute, little puppy phase. I think it's disgusting to get an animal and then get rid of it. It is horribly traumatizing for that animal, to bond to a person and then be abandoned or thrown out. They are affected for the rest of their lives, at times unable to trust another person again or they'll develop major separation anxiety and behavior problems rendering them unsuitable for adoption by someone else. And this is if they even make it to a no-kill shelter. Many, many, many times that is exactly where they end up: dead. So if you are reading this I urge you to please, please take everything into account if you are wanting a dog and please consider a shelter. I did not know this when I got my dog but there are pure-bred dog rescues out there of every breed imaginable. So try those first. I should mention though that my dog, while not from a shelter came from a very selective and conscientious breeder. friend story I uploaded a picture of my friends, Yi-Ling & Mayumi, from my phone the other day. The thing is, my phone keeps resending the same pic like 5 times. That is why their picture was up so many times. Anyway... Mayumi was my roommate in Paris. We became fast friends and had many, many funny adventures in France (along with everyone else on the trip of course). Which is why I was so sad to have lost touch with her. She got a new phone number and email and I had heard she moved to NYC and so I didn't try going to her apartment. She was actually the one who turned me on to the neighborhood I live in now. I loved her apartment and best of all, her proximity to the train. So when it came time to move out of West Rogers Park we searched in her 'hood. I have been in this same neighborhood for the last 4 years now and all along I thought Mayumi was long gone. I came to know Yi-Ling through school also. When we got back from Paris we had a huge, huge project to complete and Yi-Ling was the person hired to aid us in finishing this immense project in just 3 weeks. She is awesome at everything ID, whether it's 3D modeling or free-hand sketching. Well we became really good friends and remained in touch up till graduation. She got her big design job and became super busy and I eventually did too. So we lost touch. She too, changed her email and despite my many attempts to find her I was unsuccessful. Well about 2 months ago I was walking with another friend down Lincoln Avenue and I passed a person who in my peripheral vision struck me as Yi-Ling. However we were deep in conversation and I didn't want to interrupt. I actually turned around but I didn't get a look at her face and so I didn't call out her name. Exactly a week later I was working and who walks in but Yi-Ling!! Turns out she lives a couple of blocks away from where i work and only a bit further from where I live! That time in the street was her. So then through Yi-Ling I found Mayumi. Turns out that Mayumi had not moved, for the past 4 years she had practically been my neighbor!! I say had because this past January she moved downtown. For her part finding Yi-Ling was a small miracle because after having lost her for about 2 years, I found her right before she moved back home to Taiwan! I got to see her and hang out with her for such a short time before she left and now I'm sad she is gone. She is such a great person. She told me that even though we would go so long without seeing each other, we always picked up right were we left off, like no time had passed. I think it's rare to find someone like that and I appreciate her. We now keep in touch through (current) emails and we will meet each other in Japan sometime soon. Who knows, maybe I'll go all the way to Taiwan to visit her  ohh the excitementI revamped my colors and added twitter ya'll!! Whoot-whoot! The emperor has no clothesI haven't been writing lately because I feel like all I have to say
lately is about politics. Honestly I am not afraid to offend anyone but
I get so worked up thinking about everything that my point gets lost
and I end up with a very incoherent entry. More incoherent than usual
anyway. I am up so late right now anyway, I can't sleep because I have
a headache. I just can't believe all the hoopla about Palin. I just can't understand how people are actually letting themselves be sidetracked by a person who is so utterly unqualified. How can it be that someone who just got her passport last year be in the running for vice-president?! This is amazing to me. It just shows how little interest she has in the rest of the world. I have seen more of the world than she has! How can anyone say that they would want somebody like her to represent them on the world stage? Wouldn't you want your potential next president to have experience with heads of state, diplomacy, international relations and all that other important stuff that seems to have been swept under the rug in favor of her nomination. Then again it didn't seem to matter to 50% of our country that the current person in power had never traveled abroad either. This little show of taking her to the UN meeting is just another shovel of crap thrown on to try and bury her inexperience. I'm sorry but I don't think a crash couse in diplomacy qualifies you as capable to lead a country. How can it be that someone who is being investigated for abuse of power, and is not cooperating with said investgation, be a candidate to run the country?! Her ethics are already in question! If that is what she did on a small-town level can you imagine what she can be capable of on a national level? I shudder to think. Why are people ok with the fact that she has been sheltered from the media?! It's so crazy! The explanations make the issue even more absurd. Why is she getting special allowances? If she isn't ready to take hard questions from the media how can she be ready to be vice-president? If she has to have special rules when she debates Biden because she is not as skilled a debater as Biden then why is she running? Do you think Russia or Iran are going to coddle her in the same fashion? It looks like she is getting a break because she is a woman and that makes me even more mad! And why are journalists abiding by this? What about the first amendment? incredible. I like the comparison Roger Ebert made when he said Palin is the American Idol candidate. It's true. People like her because they relate to her down home, mommy persona. But really people. Do you really want a small-town politican running an entire country? What the hell would she know about being commander in chief? I wonder what presidential-cred-crash-course they will come up with next? I am just amazed at the parlor tricks people fall for. If a similar candidate was running on democratic side I would feel the same. I would want the media to have access to them so I could know what this person is really about. I would want to see if they could handle the questions and the pressure. I would want to know this for myself. But how can you know what this person really stands for if they are being kept so tightly under wraps and completely controlled? Its so fishy and underhanded, I can't believe people in her own party are standing for it. Something else that keeps me up at night is that in the face of such obvious, glaring inadequacies of Palin, the democratic camp has been fairly lukewarm about the whole thing. Its time to take the gloves off Obama! I know he wants to run a positive campaign and that is comendable but you have to draw the line somewhere. I want to see him and Biden really get in there and go on the attack. Come on! I am afraid the dems are going to puss out like they did the last 2 times. Lets be honest, they did. Ok well it's 5am now and I have gotten a bit of what I have been thinking off my chest. Perhaps I will be able to get a few winks in before daybreak. I am just hoping and praying, watching this freak show play out, wondering where it will all take us and trying to not get so personally invested, and not succeeding. Sigh. Probama Not to rip off Bernie Mac (RIP), but...America, I am worried!! I watch the political happenings of this country in disbelief. I can't believe that after all we have went through these last 8 years, it is still a neck-to-neck race for the presidency. Now is the time when information is at our fingertips, literally. Want to know what the issues are? Look it up! What is important to you? Look up how closely the candidates voting history matches up with what you value. I think we should look past party lines, race and all the other crap that muddles up what is fundamentally important, and vote on what is important to you. It's important to look at the overall picture not just a single issue, because I think a lot of people get caught up on one thing and end up voting for someone who is not the right person for the job. I am hoping and praying that people come to their senses and vote for Obama. I believe that he can bring about the changes that are sorely needed to improve our quality of life, the quality of our country and ultimately contribute to a better world. Faux PasBoy can I really put my foot in my mouth! I mean really! I'm sure it happens to all of us but I feel like it happens to me more often than others. I don't do it on purpose, I swear but then I have to work so hard not to laugh. I laugh when I get nervous, so I'm just one embarrassed, smiling, stuttering mess with my foot in my mouth. The other day I got to talking to this girl who had the cutest Chihuahua. She lives close by me and we were talking about setting up some playdates for our dogs and just about their personalities. Well I was telling her how Mutley only likes small dogs but instead of just saying that I say "He doesn't like big owners!" OMG! And of course she is pretty fat, more than me even. Right away I said "I mean big dogs!" But this lady near by overheard and cracked up. Man, I feel horrible. Now I am kind of embarrassed to call her for the playdate. Here is another one. My sis and I were at the grocery store and we were looking at the vegetable party platters. They weren't priced and I had noticed this guy stocking them. So I said (quite loudly, I suppose) "well, lets ask this guy for the price." I turn around and come face to face with the WOMAN who was stocking! I was a bit in shock and I went from looking at her face to her boobs, her boobs to her face- in disbelief! She was rather manly and had on a big, gray coat, so from behind it was hard to tell. I'm sure she was freaked out having a crazy person call her a guy and then stare at her boobs! I'm terrible I know. So the hub has been on tour for 2 weeks now and life here has been pretty quiet. I'm ok and I don't ever freak out about being alone not even at night. I take precautions, like staying on a well lit street when i walk the dog at night and making sure all the doors leading to my apartment lock, but I'm generally not very paranoid. So the other night i was lying in bed and for whatever reason i was thinking how it would be funny if everyone had a nanny cam and had to watch themselves go about their daily lives. They would see all the funny/gross/crazy things they do that they are not even aware of. Well, as I am thinking about this. The door to the my hallway busts open and the dog starts going nuts, barking. I know I had closed that door securely and I freaked out, I must have jumped about 6 feet straight up in the air, covers and all. I was sure I was about to be killed. All I could do was lay there perfectly still (after having hit the ceiling of course) and close my eyes tightly. I just thought, "Ok, just be quick, just kill me, I don't want to see anything!" I was so scared!! Finally the dog stopped barking and I peeked through one eye. All clear, phew!! It must have been a strong gust of wind that blew the door open and knocked my shampoo bottles off the bathroom window. That would've been a good nanny cam episode. The CutSo I went for it! I cut my hair super short. It feels great, very liberating. I am very happy with it! C & I decided we were both going to go get our hair cut very short on Saturday. So we got up early and went to the salon. I was not nervous at all, for some reason I just felt that it would turn out well. Now I have my hair the shortest it's ever been! My head feels so light and I can feel the breeze on my neck! C's hair is super short too. He cut his because he didn't want to have to mess with it while on tour. He's going to do a tour of the northeast and parts of Canada. Well now we are both "pelones!" We can't keep our hands off each others hair-I said HAIR! He keeps running his hands through the back of my head and I like to feel the spikiness of the back of his. How strange! I should have done this a long time ago. I wanted to do it a long time ago but a certain family member (who shall remain nameless but you know who you are) told me once that women don't look good with short hair and that I would look really ugly and fat blah, blah, blah. And that was before I was actually fat! I can't believe I let someone and their own hang-ups, put me down like that and prevent me from trying new things! But see when you are so young and impressionable you take in everything that people say, especially people that you love and trust, and it stays with you. That is why it pisses me off when I hear people criticize young girls. Just let them be! They don't need to be worried about their weight or their looks yet! Let them enjoy being girls! I wish people realized exactly how fragile self-esteem is in a young girl and would do their best to build it up and protect it instead of making disparaging comments and labeling them. I hate hearing "she's so fat!" "she's mal echa" "she's too short or too skinny or her nose is too big" It's disgusting! When I hear those things I realize No wonder I was so self-conscience and uncomfortable with myself! Who can develop a healthy sense of worth hearing those things all the time? No wonder I was (and still am sometimes) so hesitant to try new things. I’m definitely not over it yet and I think my positive self image is always a work-in-progress. You just have to tune out the negativity. I love my new haircut and I regret not doing it sooner! All these years, I really missed out! ps. I will post a photo soon. I have received complaints that some people can't see the photos I post and I'm trying to get to the bottom of it. I don't know if it is a compatibility issue since I use a mac sometimes or what else it could be. So once I figure it out, I'll post photos. on second thought I love a juicy, gossip rag. In Touch, People and all the rest of those magazines are my guilty pleasure. I justify it by telling myself that those people want that attention, that it comes with the territory of being famous. The scrutiny and the persecution are part of the game, a small price to pay in exchange for the adoration and multi-million dollar paychecks. I also really enjoy true crime shows like 48 Hours and other csi type shows. I can't really justify my morbid curiosity for watching those shows, the details and the science all make for fascinating TV. Its easy to disassociate and forget that what your are reading and watching happened to an actual, feeling person. It's only until it happens to you, even if only in a small way, that you understand the horror of intrusion. When you see your tragedy, your most sacred pain in black and white, you want to just collapse inside yourself. I don't know if I will ever be comfortable finding empty entertainment out of other people's lives. locksYesterday I went and donated my hair to locks of love.
I'm still getting used to my new do. I like it ok but deep down I really wanted it shorter. Call me crazy but I kinda want a choppy pixie cut. I want to see how it feels to have VERY
Please check out Locks of Love and consider donating your hair. It's a very wonderful organization. no more babyBaby and mom left this past Sunday, leaving me sad and lonely. I miss them! My apartment still smells like I haven't been moping around though. With my new-found freedom, I went out and had fun. I went to the pitchfork festival this weekend and had a good time with my VIP pass! It was great, free drinks and free Chipotle and cool bands all weekend long, ohhhh yesss!! Backstage, baby! The coolest thing of all though, even cooler than the free burritos, is I MET FLAVOR FLAV!! hahaha! Public Enemy closed the first night of the festival and I met both Flav and Chuck D. Got my pic with em and everything. Actually I almost didn't get my pic with Flav, I caught him as he was coming out of his trailer So now that pitchfork is over and our "foster children" have gone home, I don't know what we'll do with our time! more baby!So the baby is what my summer has been all about. Don't expect any entries about anything else for a while! A short while, unfortunately for me, because the baby and mom will be leaving soon and I will be left to suffer! But let's not think about that for now, I'm putting that off until I absolutely have to. Anyway....
Angel is filling out and growing so fast! He turned 1 month on the 4th, I told Pau the nation was celebrating his birthday :) He has actually outgrown some of his little clothes. He fits in size 0-3 now soon to be 3-6. After I gave him a bath last night I noticed that his size 1 diapers seemed snug, so it's on to size 2! He is starting to coo and its so cute. His personality is starting to come out. While he isn't a fussy baby, he is very demanding when it's time to eat. He has the loudest scream I have ever heard on a baby, he blows my eardrums out! And he sometimes does this piercing shriek that will wake you from the deepest sleep, you'd think someone pinched him or something. Once he eats though, he is calm and quiet. He opens his eyes wide and looks around a lot.
I took a lot of child development classes in college and a lot of what I learned is coming back to me. I see all the reflexes that we talked about that newborns have like the Babinski reflex and the standing one etc. I did that smell test with him where I put him on the bed and put one of his mom's shirts on one side and right away he turned his face towards that side and kept it there. It's amazing!! Sometimes when he is screaming and Pau is tired, I put one of her shirts over my arm when I hold him and it calms him down. Pretty neat trick!
Oh and of course like any new baby person I have to talk about the poop. Well, he had the biggest, loudest blowout the other night! It was absolutely hilarious!! We did not know what we were in for. It was all over! The 3 of us were cracking up and it was caos because we were laughing so hard we couldn't do anything. He just layed there brows furrowed, looking up at us like "what the hell?" I had just given him a bath and we had to put him under the shower to get him clean again. So while me and Pau did that, Charlie handled the clean up. So once everything was calm again I asked Charlie where he put the dirty onesie, his reply: IN THE TRASH!! He just threw it away! LOL!!! The next day I didn't even notice the little souvenier he left on my dress until I was already out.
So the four of us are going to Hutch this weekend! I can't wait for the rest of the family to meet the little guy. We are driving down and I don't really know what to expect from a 5 week old on a 12 hour drive. I hope one of his shrieks doesn't make charlie veer off into a ditch or something. If anything it will at least keep him awake! ;) I am excited to see everyone! Especially the other little ones: Naty & Andy!! We are going to have a little party for Angel and Pau while we are down there so if you are reading this you're are invited! Hope to see you there. Oh baby!Hey eveyone, meet my new nephew!!
His name is Angel Gabriel and he was born on June 4th at 10:59pm. I was there for the whole thing, from the first contraction to the final push! It was awesome, kinda freaky, but overall really awesome. C & I both watched him come out and take his first breath. It was very emotional! Pau is a natural, she looks so beautiful holding her little one.
I can't believe Pau has a baby and is a mother, she is almost 10 years younger than me. What's with all these kids beating us to the delivery room??
C & I are completely in love with this little guy. It has really been an amazing experience and we feel honored that Pau included us. |
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