It's not you, it's me. Really. I mean I found someone else. Actually I have been with this other for a long while now and this going back and forth is driving me crazy. Most everyone knows by now but I wanted to tell you before you found out on your own. Sigh.... We had a good run, goodtymes and all that so let's not forget. I really think we can be friends. I mean, I will need my space, who doesn't, but I won't be around as much. I don't want to lose touch. Please, don't cry..... msnspaces. It's just that facebook is so much better!!

There are days when I wish I could move out to the country. I would love to have a farm with a ton of animals! Whenever I see animals that are up for adoption, I want to bring them all home with me. I think up ways in which I could #1 convince the hubby that it's a good idea and #2 figure out how to fit one more being into our small apartment. Then reality kicks in and I know both of those things are impossible. Which is why I fantasize about the farm. I'd have a cat house like the ones at the zoo that they keep leopards in. I'd have lots of little, crazy dogs like the Osbournes and maybe even a couple of big dogs. I would definitely have rabbits and chickens and a pond with ducks. Oh and I would have those little, tiny ponys that are so adorable. Sigh.... it would be so great!

Too bad the experimental jazz scene doesn't thrive out in the country.  Maybe we could start a mini-animal petting zoo slash avant-garde music club. How is that for a business plan? A girl can dream, can't I?

P.S. Happy 22nd birthday to my boy Adriancito, wherever you may be. I have to share my favorite picture of him... I love it because of what he wrote on the back. He was excited to give me his new school picture and I made him "dedicate" it to me.  I told him to write something personal on the back and this is what he came up with. I love it!

I had a rather interesting and frustrating day last Saturday. I had errands to run, the likes of which I won't bore you with, just know I waited in looong lines forever and drove through pot-holey, traffic for nothing. Anyway I got a haircut and not realizing I couldn't tip on my card, I had to make an ATM run. Luckily the bank wasn't too far away and I took a shortcut through an alley and a parking lot. Well I was coming up to the lot and I saw a guy looking around struggling to put something in his front passenger seat. His car was blocking me and as I crept a bit closer I realized he was trying to force a girl into his car! She was fighting him and screaming! I couldn't believe my eyes. I drove right up to him and started honking my horn like crazy. He looked right at me and let her go. She took off running down the street. The guy was pissed! He was a young 17-20yr old, Hispanic guy with two large, sparkly earrings. I looked at his tag and repeated it out loud to memorize it. He took off and I pulled into the lot and called 911. Side note: I officially think the iPhone is not safe in an emergency! I had to go through too many steps to get to the dial pad to call 911. I definitely couldn't have done it while driving and I was afraid that after so many steps, I'd forget the plate numbers. Which is why I repeated the numbers aloud and when the operator answered it was the first thing I said.

How freaky is that? How brazen of that little bastard to pull something like that! I hope the cops found him, I hope they found something illegal in his car so he could be arrested. It looked like more like a domestic situation than a kidnapping attempt. I could be wrong but something about the way she ran away makes me think that, she was not quite terrified enough. When I left the bank I saw the guy drive by again but I thought I saw someone in the car with him. He probably caught up with her. I saw no cops at all in the area, go figure.

Domestic abuse is everywhere. Look at the whole Rhianna and Chris Brown incident. I hate how celebrities give these sound bites saying they are "praying for both of them." Why is it so difficult to admonish Brown? There is no question that he beat the crap out of her. It shouldn't matter how it started or what the fight was about. He has no right to put his filthy paws on her and he should be incarcerated for what he did. Bottom line: a man can defend himself against a female but a female can not defend herself against a man. What a piece of crap he is. I have no tolerance for abusive, controlling, domineering men. I also have no tolerance for the women who let them get away with it. It will be a real shame if Rhianna doesn't press charges, which at this point it looks like she won't. That will tell all those young girls out there that they have to be good girlfriends and forgive their abusers instead of holding them accountable for their crimes. I am sick of seeing and hearing about cases like this, it's an epidemic.

Obviously, I have issues regarding Domestic Abuse having witnessed it first hand. It seems like it's always going to be one of my red button issues. I'm just glad that my husband is the complete opposite of all those disgusting, cowards I have been unfortunate enough to know. Sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky to end up with him, because I know how difficult it is to break the cycle of abuse.

So I'm sure you've heard, our governor has been kicked out of office. It's such an embarrassment for our state. He actually lives a couple of blocks down from me and we are used to seeing him around the 'hood. When we first moved here I noticed a house that always had a guy in a black crown Vic sitting outside or a state trooper car in the drive. It wasn't until Charlie got into a little tiff with one of those officers late one night that we found out exactly who lived there. He made the most grievous error of honking at said trooper, when he was blocking the street. So not only did the trooper come over and yell at Charlie for honking at a cop but Charlie was also not wearing his seat belt and had a headlight out. Not smart. Well in what is his typical style, Charlie called the trooper's commander and complained. We promptly recieved an apology from the commander and were left quite bewildered by it. A quick google search later we found out why.

I will say that I liked him because I thought it was very nice that he didn't move to Springfield because he didn't want to uproot his daughter from school.  I liked that he was able to pass a type of affordable health insurance for all kids of Illinois and their families. I was a big fan of that. So when we saw him jogging by or walked by his house with the dog, he always waved and was very nice. Sure, I had heard the gossip of his family connections and dubious qualifications but I didn't really pay it much mind.

So you can imagine my surprise when he was arrested on the 9th of December. I am so mad at him now! I know he hasn't been convicted in a criminal court but after hearing those tapes it's hard to believe he is innocent. The worst offense in my opinion is the funding he withheld from a children's hospital because they wouldn't make a campaign contribution. I hate to think of how many poor, sick children were affected by his selfishness. It's disgusting. We were at a bar the other night till like 2am talking with friends about all he is being accused of. It's so bad! I feel like the whole world is laughing at Illinois. It really makes me lose so much faith in government here and everywhere else. I see it like this, if this happens so brazenly here were we supposedly have so many laws and transparency, what hope is there for other places in the world were they don't have these "rights?" I realize that his impeachment can be taken as evidence that our "system" is working and that he will be made out to be an example of what happens to corrupt politicians, but some how it does not restore my confidence in government and politicians.

So today our neighborhood was again over run with reporters and camera crews. It's so strange for a person like me who grew up in a place where absolutely nothing ever happened, to now be watching events like these before my own eyes. I saw when the state troopers were removed from their post outside his house and I wonder what he is going to do now. He definitely needs some kind of security, if only to field all the reporters. I feel so bad for his kid, how sad and scary must this all be for her. Now if he would only shut up and start taking this seriously.

So I have to turn off Telly. I can't watch the inauguration anymore. I'm beyond happy that everything went so well and that we now have hope in the White House. I just can't watch everyone crying and celebrating anymore. Ever since I went to a friends condo last night and he nonchalantly told me that he had tickets to everything and just didn't go. It made me sick. Then he showed me his VIP pass and pictures on his phone where Obama is like 10 feet away from him during his acceptance speech. I was really peeved. It just reminded me of how unfair this world can be. Millions of people would have been honored to be a part of yesterday's historic events and he just didn't go. Not because of his job, or because he couldn't afford it, just because. Well fuck that! I'm so mad. Then I got to thinking about all the assholes who didn't even vote for him and still got to go to all the events because they are a bunch of status hungry, ass kissers. Oh man, I need a time out. breeeaaaatheee, breeeaaatheee.

Ok I feel a bit better. I don't want to end this post on a negative note so I will list all the things I particuarly enjoyed about yesterday:

• New Prez, nuff said
• Michelle's yellow outfit
• Sasha giving his dad a thumbs up after his speech
• Watching ol' dubya hit the road
• Seeing millions of people so happy
• Watching it all from the comfort of my bed with my hubby next to me